Melancholia of the Moment

 

Tonight on Facebook I posted:

A chill, dark wind blew through my soul tonight; a premonition that in the distant future, I will in solitude reflect on these days, and see only the dear faces of friends who died young or grew old fighting for America.

I’m gloomy tonight because I know that politically, culturally and financially, we’ve been losing our grip on the cliff face for some time, and as is my habit, I projected myself forward in time, to grandchildren, old age and memories. I know that my most precious, desperate memories will be of Andrew Breitbart, my friends at National Review, Ricochet, and at Hollywood’s most secret, delightful gatherings of conservatives. I will remember the happy warrior mentality that most maintained from 2008 right up to the disappointments of 2016 and beyond. I made some of my best friends for life during these days of high hopes and hard work.

Mostly though, I will remember their faces; from the very famous to the unknowns who clamored to be heard at CPAC and FreedomFest; chins up, eyes shining with the challenge of beating insurmountable odds, all in the hope of winning back freedom. 

This is not to diminish my love for family and non-political friends. As a life-long political nut, my life has necessarily been divided between a “normal” place where it’s impolite to talk about politics and religion, and a rather colorful existence as an vocal activist, sometime writer, booking agent and marketing manager in California.

Perhaps historians will someday explore the phenomenon of rebellious freedom warriors like us, who found each other and fought together in the midst of calamity, but then again, they say only winners write history….so.

Hence the melancholia. Although the best will fight on, it is likely that a great many lights of the revolution will go dark after the election. If we are to have another President Clinton, (and this one unconcerned about her legacy or her popularity), some will quietly give up, exhausted and broken. Pundits and political cartoonists will be further marginalized. Some may heed history and realize the danger of crossing the kind of brazen power that she will hold. Still others will note the examples that are made of unfortunate souls. In the end, the idea of America may only be a guarded memory.

 

 

 

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  1. TKC1101 Member
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    Well said. A lot of us are haunted by similar visions of America falling apart while we try to keep family together and safe.

    We are at a last chance to stop the rush to the darkness. It may be inevitable, but we need to hold on.

    I have faith some parts will survive and perhaps re-emerge, but it will not be pretty , safe or fun.

    I have had my run, but my grandchildren will be tested.

    I live in a state where the legislature just voted to shut down one third of electrical generating  capacity to save the planet. Tern years after that, they will not buy fossil fuel generated power from outside the state.

    Rationed power will be the only solutions, with long outages. I intend to leave before the inevitable disaster occurs.

    That is just the beginning.

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  2. Dave Sussman Member
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    The darkest hour is always before dawn. Remember, America, as is life is a roller coaster ride with ups and downs. There will be unexpected ‘up’s just around the corner. Whatever happens in November, it won’t stop the sun from rising or you from enjoying your growing family, which is what’s most important. Smile M. :)

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  3. 10 cents Member
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    How about zoom and boom instead of gloom and doom? Maybe we will lose but we don’t have to go down without giving it our best.

    I like this excerpt from a book I read by Randall Wallace.

    By the mid-1980s, I felt like my life was really starting to go well. I’d gotten married, we had two beautiful sons, and I’d won a multiyear contract with a thriving television company. Not too long after my second son was born, we bought a new home, and then six months later, the Writers Guild went on strike, which caused the company I worked for to void its contract with me. The strike went on forever, and when it was over, the company was barely there anymore. I was out of work, my savings were gone, and no one would return my phone calls.

    I kept trying, of course; I was always good at trying. But one day I was sitting at home, at my desk, staring at nothing, my stomach in a knot, my hands trembling, and I realized I was breaking down. I feared I was failing my family; my greatest fear was that I would fail my sons. I was afraid they would see me come apart, and it would be something they could never forget.

    (con’t)

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  4. 10 cents Member
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    I got down on my knees; I had nowhere else to go. And I prayed a simple prayer. I said, “Lord, all I care about right now are those two boys. And maybe they don’t need to grow up in a house with a tennis court and a swimming pool. Maybe they need a little house with one bathroom—or no bathrooms at all. Maybe they need to see what a man does when he gets knocked down, the way my father showed me. But I pray, if I go down, let me go down not on my knees, but with my flag flying.”

    And I got up, and I began to write the words that led me to Braveheart.

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  5. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    @6foot2inhighheels

    I had always intended to pursue conservative politics, but Reagan got elected, and in 1988, my first child was born into a world of shining cities on hills.  The focus of too many of us shifted, and in 2009, we woke up, but it was too late.

    I’m bone tired and sad, and will have to take a little break from writing portentously dark little pieces like this.

    I sure appreciate the words of good cheer, too.  It’s only occasionally things turn out as bad as I think they will, after all.

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  6. Ball Diamond Ball Member
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    6foot2inhighheels: Perhaps historians will someday explore the phenomenon of rebellious freedom warriors like us,

    Indeed they will.  They will diagnose us as suffering pathoheterodoxy syndrome:

    You have unreal expectations… You overestimate your personal powers. You feel isolated from society. You swing from excitement to sadness. You mistrust the people who most want to help you. You resent authority even when you represent it. You think you are the exception to every rule. You underestimate the collective intelligence. What is right is wrong and what is wrong is right.

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  7. Arahant Member
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    Needs a little deep philosophy to round this out:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlBiLNN1NhQ

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  8. Ball Diamond Ball Member
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    @BallDiamondBall

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  9. Fake John/Jane Galt Coolidge
    Fake John/Jane Galt
    @FakeJohnJaneGalt

    Dave Sussman:The darkest hour is always before dawn. Remember, America, as is life is a roller coaster ride with ups and downs. There will be unexpected ‘up’s just around the corner. Whatever happens in November, it won’t stop the sun from rising or you from enjoying your growing family, which is what’s most important. Smile M. ?

    This is great but we are finite beings that only live a finite time.  I have no expectation of living to the next up.

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  10. Podkayne of Israel Inactive
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    Dave Sussman:The darkest hour is always before dawn.

    The Hungarians say it’s always darkest before it goes completely black. :D

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  11. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    @6foot2inhighheels

    Ball Diamond Ball:

    6foot2inhighheels: Perhaps historians will someday explore the phenomenon of rebellious freedom warriors like us,

    Indeed they will. They will diagnose us as suffering pathoheterodoxy syndrome:

    You have unreal expectations… You overestimate your personal powers. You feel isolated from society. You swing from excitement to sadness. You mistrust the people who most want to help you. You resent authority even when you represent it. You think you are the exception to every rule. You underestimate the collective intelligence. What is right is wrong and what is wrong is right.

    Nothing the a little re-education won’t fix.

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  12. Ball Diamond Ball Member
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    @BallDiamondBall

    6foot2inhighheels:

    Ball Diamond Ball:

    6foot2inhighheels: Perhaps historians will someday explore the phenomenon of rebellious freedom warriors like us,

    Indeed they will. They will diagnose us as suffering pathoheterodoxy syndrome:

    You have unreal expectations… You overestimate your personal powers. You feel isolated from society. You swing from excitement to sadness. You mistrust the people who most want to help you. You resent authority even when you represent it. You think you are the exception to every rule. You underestimate the collective intelligence. What is right is wrong and what is wrong is right.

    Nothing the a little re-education won’t fix.

    Just the same, Comrade, you not only organize and execute good things, but you inspire them as well.  So take your lap around Melancholy Park, and try a cigarette from twenty years ago as you walk home in the dark; realize again that of course it’s all trash and return to form the next day.  Or week.

    You’re entitled.

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  13. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    @6foot2inhighheels

    Ball Diamond Ball: So take your lap around Melancholy Park, and try a cigarette from twenty years ago as you walk home in the dark; realize again that of course it’s all trash and return to form the next day. Or week.

    Thank you, I was thinking the same thing – despair is neither attractive or effective.  I’ll take a week.

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  14. Ball Diamond Ball Member
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    6foot2inhighheels:

    Ball Diamond Ball: So take your lap around Melancholy Park, and try a cigarette from twenty years ago as you walk home in the dark; realize again that of course it’s all trash and return to form the next day. Or week.

    Thank you, I was thinking the same thing – despair is neither attractive or effective. I’ll take a week.

    Well, it’s not despair when you’ve decided to sell the portfolio and invest in ammo.  And I am not suggesting taking a week from posting or any such thing.  Just as much time as you feel you need to go through the turn, and by all means, post away.  Not all valid points are cheerful ones.  We all go through these.

    Welcome.  I’m so hard into the turn it looks like NASCAR over here.  Y’be aight.

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  15. 10 cents Member
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    6foot2inhighheels:

    Ball Diamond Ball: So take your lap around Melancholy Park, and try a cigarette from twenty years ago as you walk home in the dark; realize again that of course it’s all trash and return to form the next day. Or week.

    Thank you, I was thinking the same thing – despair is neither attractive or effective. I’ll take a week.

    How about brooding in a taciturn far off looking way? With the right heels anyone looks attractive. Or so I have heard.

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  16. Richard Finlay Inactive
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    6foot2inhighheels: It’s only occasionally things turn out as bad as I think they will, after all.

    With practice at gloomy pessimism, you can get to where things never turn out as bad as you think.  Then you can always be cheerful because they didn’t.

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  17. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    Ball Diamond Ball:Well, it’s not despair when you’ve decided to sell the portfolio and invest in ammo. And I am not suggesting taking a week from posting or any such thing. Just as much time as you feel you need to go through the turn, and by all means, post away. Not all valid points are cheerful ones. We all go through these.

    Welcome. I’m so hard into the turn it looks like NASCAR over here. Y’be aight.

    At this point, I’m gathering my things, and making practical plans for a more reticent, cautious life after Hillary takes the throne.  My friends who still believe that somehow we’re going to rally 4-8 years from now to resurrect hard core conservatism “because in their hearts, everyone is really conservative”, are tragically mistaken.  I’m with Michael Walsh on this – if Hillary is elected, it is all over.

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  18. Podkayne of Israel Inactive
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    Oh, 6’2″…

    I am working on a full-length response to your lament. From the point of view of an American Israeli who saw the Oslo Agreement coming and lived through the consequences.

    SPOILER ALERT:

    1) Sometimes it takes a lot of time and pain for the public to learn.

    2) Tough times don’t last, tough people do.

    3) HaShem is my Shepherd, I shall not want.

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  19. Michael Brehm Lincoln
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    Shall I tell you the secret of the whole world? It’s that we have only seen the back of the world. We see everything from behind, and it looks brutal. That is not a tree, but the back of a tree. That is not a cloud, but the back of a cloud. Cannot you see that everything is stooping and hiding a face? If we could only get round in front.
    G.K. Chesterton, The Man Who Was Thursday

    I don’t know if you’ve ever read The Man Who Was Thursday, but you might find it a tonic of encouragement in times like these.

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  20. Stad Coolidge
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    6foot2inhighheels: some will quietly give up, exhausted and broken.

    Not this guy!  As a Fed, I had to hunker down during the Clinton and Obama years, and that’s the strategy I’m going to take into the future if the Wicked Witch of the West Wing gets elected.

    The ongoing news about Hillary and her e-mails, her influence peddling, and her health could very well make the Dems draft a Biden/Warren ticket out of desperation.  Therefore:

    1. Rejoice if Trump wins,
    2. Hunker down if Hillary wins,
    3. Either way, the NR Cruise is going to rock.  Have a Bloody Mary right after breakfast like we do . . . works wonders for morale!
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  21. Front Seat Cat Member
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    That is a cryptic message – is this where we are headed 6 ft? As a Christian, these days were predicted by the Jewish prophets of the Old Testament and they are spoken of by the apostles of the New Testament – dust off and read – it is army boot time – that’s right – good and evil – head to head – God can work through those that understand His message – His Message is that He is the Creator of Heaven and Earth – all that is seen and unseen – through free will, we choose – every minute – You are making a difference – He knows every hair on your head – throw off despair and worry – politics and anything else than mere mortals can conjure are no match for God who holds you in the palm of His Hand.

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  22. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    @6foot2inhighheels

    Stad:

    • Rejoice if Trump wins,
    • Hunker down if Hillary wins,
    • Either way, the NR Cruise is going to rock. Have a Bloody Mary right after breakfast like we do . . . works wonders for morale!

    As you know, I never drank at all until I went on my first NR Cruise back in 2010.  I have since discovered for myself the miraculous medcinal power of alcohol.  I probably won’t make it to the NR cruise this year, but I’ll try – just to hang out with the Stads :)

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  23. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    Front Seat Cat:That is a cryptic message – is this where we are headed 6 ft? As a Christian, these days were predicted by the Jewish prophets of the Old Testament and they are spoken of by the apostles of the New Testament – dust off and read – it is army boot time – that’s right – good and evil – head to head – God can work through those that understand His message – His Message is that He is the Creator of Heaven and Earth – all that is seen and unseen – through free will, we choose – every minute – You are making a difference – He knows every hair on your head – throw off despair and worry – politics and anything else than mere mortals can conjure are no match for God who holds you in the palm of His Hand.

    Good words, friend.  Michael Walsh’s The Devil’s Pleasure Palace, weaves together God, Good & Evil, Music, the Western Tradition and popular culture into what is the best thing I’ve read in years.  I highly recommend it.

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  24. Chris Campion Coolidge
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    @ChrisCampion

    TKC1101:Well said. A lot of us are haunted by similar visions of America falling apart while we try to keep family together and safe.

    We are at a last chance to stop the rush to the darkness. It may be inevitable, but we need to hold on.

    I have faith some parts will survive and perhaps re-emerge, but it will not be pretty , safe or fun.

    I have had my run, but my grandchildren will be tested.

    I live in a state where the legislature just voted to shut down one third of electrical generating capacity to save the planet. Tern years after that, they will not buy fossil fuel generated power from outside the state.

    Rationed power will be the only solutions, with long outages. I intend to leave before the inevitable disaster occurs.

    That is just the beginning.

    You live in Vermont?  There’s a reason I left.

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  25. 6foot2inhighheels Member
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    Chris Campion: You live in Vermont? There’s a reason I left.

    Nope!  My official residence is Michigan.  In 2010 we got a Republican Governor, Republican Legislature, and conservative Supreme Court -so things are getting better; liberal concealed carry, no state involvement with homeschoolers, unlimited choice in charter schools and a solid Right-To-Work law.

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  26. Chris Campion Coolidge
    Chris Campion
    @ChrisCampion

    6foot2inhighheels:

    Chris Campion: You live in Vermont? There’s a reason I left.

    Nope! My official residence is Michigan. In 2010 we got a Republican Governor, Republican Legislature, and conservative Supreme Court -so things are getting better; liberal concealed carry, no state involvement with homeschoolers, unlimited choice in charter schools and a solid Right-To-Work law.

    So you live in Un-Vermont.  Understood.

    I now live in North Carolina and never plan on leaving.  I mean my house.  Ever.

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  27. James Gawron Inactive
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    Six,

    No not you! You can’t give up Six, you can’t.

    Regards,

    Jim

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  28. Western Chauvinist Member
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    We left our oldest daughter at Hillsdale last Sunday to start her freshman year. I cannot describe how good a place and how virtuous the ideas there… We are so thankful for this outpost of Christian western heritage and our daughter’s opportunity to attend.

    You need to make a pilgrimage, 6’2″. You will be with your people. Victor Davis Hanson is speaking at Hillsdale next week on the 9th. If you’re unable to make it, just watch this:

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  29. Eric Wallace Inactive
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    FWIW, I’ve been thinking about this song a lot lately

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  30. Seawriter Contributor
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    The Stars Go Over the Lonely Ocean

    by Robinson Jeffers

    Unhappy about some far off things
    That are not my affair, wandering
    Along the coast and up the lean ridges,
    I saw in the evening
    The stars go over the lonely ocean,
    And a black-maned wild boar
    Plowing with his snout on Mal Paso Mountain.

    The old monster snuffled, “Here are sweet roots,
    Fat grubs, slick beetles and sprouted acorns.
    The best nation in Europe has fallen,
    And that is Finland,
    But the stars go over the lonely ocean,”
    The old black-bristled boar,
    Tearing the sod on Mal Paso Mountain.

    “The world’s in a bad way, my man,
    And bound to be worse before it mends;
    Better lie up in the mountain here
    Four or five centuries,
    While the stars go over the lonely ocean,”
    Said the old father of wild pigs,
    Plowing the fallow on Mal Paso Mountain.

    “Keep clear of the dupes that talk democracy
    And the dogs that talk revolution,
    Drunk with talk, liars and believers.
    I believe in my tusks.
    Long live freedom and damn the ideologies,”
    Said the gamey black-maned boar
    Tusking the turf on Mal Paso Mountain.

    Believe in your tusks. Long live freedom, and damn the ideologies.

    Seawriter

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