In the latest episode of "Girls," Hannah (Lena Dunham) gets two pieces of seriously bad news. The less bad of the two is that her ex-boyfriend of two years from college is actually gay--and, as he tells her at the bar, would fantasize about men when they were together.
The second more serious bit of bad tidings is that Hannah has a sexually transmitted disease: HPV. The reason that Hannah is at the bar with her ex in the first place is because she is trying to figure out who gave her the STD.
Elijah, her ex, is not the source. That leaves Adam, the hipster creep Hannah's been sleeping with. Adam, who plays with her belly fat and fantasizes in bed that she's an eleven-year-old girl, had told Hannah earlier in the episode that he didn't give her the STD because he's been tested for it.
Turns out that Adam is a liar. Men can't get tested for HPV. And now Hannah is left to deal with the consequences of their condomless hook ups.
As the episode is coming to a close, a seriously demoralized Hannah sits in bed with her laptop open. What does she do? She pulls up her Twitter account:
She types: “You lose some, you lose some.” Self-pity. But she doesn’t hit send. She starts over, this time more explicitly: ”My life has been a lie, my ex-boyfriend dates a guy.” Again, she deletes; starts over. Finally, she taps out what amounts to a code: “All adventurous women do.”
"All adventurous women do." As Emily Nussbaum points out over at the New Yorker's culture blog, "No stranger who reads those words will know quite what they mean. They’re a credo, a pose—it’s a phrase she heard from a friend, who was repeating what another friend said, giving her a sophisticated attitude with which to face HPV."
Exactly. Hannah, who is feeling depressed, covers up her true emotions with the appearance of strength. Via Twitter, she glibly comforts herself by acting like HPV is a rite of passage for young "adventurous" women. But it's all pretense. We know it and she knows it.
Moments later, Hannah's roommate and best friend Marnie comes home. The two of them chat, catch up on their days, and then start dancing their worries away to Robyn's "Dancing On My Own," a song that, like Hannah's tweet, is defined by the sentiment of acting strong when you're really feeling vulnerable and alone.
That's how the show ends. It's a great sequence, capturing how emotionally dishonest we can be with ourselves and with the world when we're staring down a conflict.